I’m nothing. I’m absolutely nothing but skin and bone and water and oxygen and particles. I am nothing to miss, or look forward to, or love. I am nothing. But that’s not even true, because nothing doesn’t try to destroy itself, for it is nothing. I want to be nothing.

I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.

I need mental health lol.

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Okay, so this really fucked up with my mind just now, and it made me really uncomfortable and I don’t know what’s happening with my head so I need to throw it out, so basically just now I was enjoying the lovely piece of bed I own. And I was like, watching youtube videos, I was watching english and afrikaan youtube videos so I was like idk enjoying it and whatever and then i see on the sidebar this ‘chilean video’ And I clicked on it. 

And all of the sudden it was a whole different language, like it went from akricaan to spanish and I stopped it for a little bit and realised my brain understood both of them languages perfectly, just like idk it’s so weird to me that this people are talking and saying stuff I listen with my ears and then I understand them in my brain like, it’s not a language I was ever familiar with but now it is and even as I’m typing this I don’t understand how I got familiar with this language or how I got familiar with spanish IT’S SO FUCKING WEIRD, HOW DO PEOPLE UNDERSTAND LANGUAGES LIKE WTF 

I dont know if anyone else does this but… I can tell when someone fell asleep just by hearing their breathing, its so obvious its like deep and perfect, does that make me a weird person? Hearing people breathe while they sleep? Idk i think its almost calming like, its really cute. They’re living today, this second, this minute, and then they wake up feeling weird trying to remember what happened in their little heads during all that time thy were unconscious. Idk…